Changing Times

At last!!....windows and doors coming in in a few weeks...electrician booked for the same time....decorator waiting in the wings...joiner chasing me...yes indeed...chasing me for the work...and the lodger finally in...phew...I have company of an evening now....all bizarre. A lot of work to get to this point...time away from the missus...and the times together were working on the flat or moving stuff into hers....bless her...the commitment and support really is quite amazing..now the fella is in for his 5 month stay I can look towards being down there every weekend...and after the upheaval of the refurbishment...a fine place to stay here and there....will life settle down?...bloody hope so. Matters made worse by running myself into the ground with a 5 day outdoors manual week...in the rain and cold...had to do nothing for a few days....while feeling totally out of it...but back on my feet and out all day today. I e mailed a senior manager last week...risky really...making my future plans about my career clear to him and asking for any advice....focussing on my line managers job...and he came back to say it was a timely e mail and he thanked me for it and he wants to meet me for a chat....will need to be slightly conspiratory even though it may not even be about the job in kind...what to do if it turns out the line manager's post is not on the table but it is the only offer at this point?...a lot of thinking and discussing with the missus will have to be done..but it does show focus and eagerness so it is all good. It is coming to dad's anniversary....but it is not just the day it is the lead up...like today...this would have been the time he had fallen out of bed and was in hospital...the time my relationship was crumbling...had actually done so really...and I was exhausted having been up and down cleaning the house....the mood...the emotions...on all fronts....terrible. I won't be able to make it on the day this time but I do want to pop down and see what is occurring...washed the grave down last time..in the peeing rain....but angels have gone and no response from Louise....had she removed it...never mind...Mitzy is still there looking after him.....if I go I do not want to do the run in a day as I would be visiting Ann as well...but I do not want to be missing the days with family either....but we shall see. Anyway...I have the radio in the morning and a meeting in the afternoon so hopefully occupied.