Rest Easy

A bit perplexed that I cannot seem to organise myself to go to the Health Club...bearing in mind it is extremely expensive...but I can't force my body if it is not for moving...walking to and from (up the hill) Kitty and a days running about is tiring for me...and I kipped for 40 mins...and I never went inbetween appointments today as there was a lot of driving inbetween...hmmm...what to do...maybe it is my reference points as to what is busy and what is not....what is "enough" and what is not...I know I drive myself sometime to test my M.E....to prove I am in control....but I have never stopped over working and filling in time...why is this?...Catholic Guilt....being made to feel not good enough when growing up?...I don't know...but I do know I do too much and this stops me from being in a place....mentally and physically...to relax and do things like the pool/sauna...I will have to get on top of this if I am to be able to do the dj work...which will be tiring in itself. At least I am aware of it though. Which is a start. Done and done.

Iron Man!!!

After 24 years I finally got checked out. Apparently, the aches and pains I have had have been to do with my age and being an old fart. Reassuring in one way but then not in another. The major thing here is that it is not down to my surgery..that it will not get worse as a result of the surgery...that I need to keep mobile and no pyhsio is required. Now, I accept that but I also am of the opinion that I do need to strengthen my back muscles more than swimming or walking..so I shall investigate this...main thing is....carry on and up! Done and done.

Taking It Easy

...a lazy Sunday.....why do I feel bad for not doing stuff that needs to be done...piffle....well...at least for the morning I will be taking it easy...off to B&Q to buy some root killer....then a food shop I think...and a meeting with a potential client for my FIRST EVER DJ gig!!!....parp!!!! I also want to go for a swim but the thought of fecking about in the place pisses me off and makes me not want to...we shall see. Billy has noticed a slate which has fallen off on the roof so I need to see if he has doen anything about it...wanted me to track down someone from the Council but the name does not show...it needs to be done so I will have to ask....do not want the same to happen here as Edinburgh. No word from Edinburgh which is good...I need to send a letter to the lass and advise what I am thinking of doing...see what she does...if I can save myself from issuing a notice to quit...and the cost...I am still overdrawn and will be more so when I invest in the dj stuff...the insurance...the solicitor fees....pay the car tax for 6 months....so the flat definitely needs to be sold...only hope that it does not affect the business next year when I change the mortgage for here....hope so and expect so....got my explanations ready for when the time comes. Hopefully working on the garden next week on the Saturday...Andy on the shed and me on the garden itself....then the court case on the Sunday...the weekend after will be the startof December and I will be working on Paul's garden..the guy who is selling me the dj stuff....and going to a launch for the Woodside Book..which I helped get published and contributed to as well..all good!!! Done and done.

Day Off

Had a day off yesterday....had a spare days annual leave to take so just did it...and relaxed!!....bought an xbox360 over the weekend and sourced a free tv...bless freecycle...so been enjoying and playing that a fair bit. Decided to invest in the 360 as I had been missing playing the old console...went to buy it....the guy reeled off all the stuff it can do...I just shut down as I couldn't fathom what the hell he was talking about!!...it is ace...easy to set up...it really does it for you...and here I am driving around the world...sniping as well...head shot!!!...bit gory but good fun. Went down to Brechin to check out all Paul's dj stuff...a serious set up although the speakers are a wee bit small...all the rest of it is really good..just a bit scary to put myself further in overdraft with a view to earn some money dj'ing and gigging....there is no question...if I buy...then I have to gig...woop woop....took the list back up to show Andy and he tells me...as I always knew....the kit is excellent for the price...and Paul is happy to receive the money in installments..which helps immensely...a genuinely nice man...he is the one who gave me his hard drive with all the tunes...so it seems 2013 will rock!!!....need to find ear plugs that allow me to hear through the cans as well...in fact...need to buy some cans..and a mic....but that shouldn't be a problem. An interesting lead on funding....I will investigate further. Done and done.

Ooooft

I feel exhausted.....and have done for the last few days....I think it is the fact I neglected to take my Vit B and C10...will begin tomorrow and see what happens. 2 days of pish prior to the weekend....off to Brechin to see Paul's garden and what needs to be done...then check out the rig and see if I wish to buy it. Bit scary thinking I will have no option....should I buy it...to go out and try and gig to recoup the monies...but a good scary though. Then off for a Don dander with Andy...possibly Grace...and any other SURFers..bit concerned as Andy seems to want to dig things an cut things but we will be on a short timescale..even with starting at 9.30 we will be pushing it to return before it starts to get dark...hey ho...will be nice to be on the Don again...and hopefully with the SURFers. I advised the solicitor dealing with the old lady's estate in Edinburgh...the ground floor flat...encouraginly...it has sold...so the Home Report can't be that bad...which puts me in good stead for next year. Sent an e mail to Perth to ask for advice on the Small Claims Court..so hopefully bring that to a close. So we shall see. Hols booked for December...and a full week in Strathrye...or at least based there....will be going to Fife for Dentist and visit Ann during one day...walking to Callander another...up to Kingshead another...and visit Glasgow for a full day as well...inbetween that I will be drinking like a Lord hopefully. Be good to stay there for more than a day or so...catch up with folk...breathe the crisp air again....will I be able to leave?...we shall see. This job at the Nursing Home will see me to the end of the year....I so hope we can find funding to replace CSO. I am not sure how long I can continue this sort of work...especially as I am acutely aware the impact it has had on me and...to a degree....on my relationships. A dog....a dog is the way to go I think,.....will consider when flat sold and Perth resolved...and if we can move away from criminal justice work. Done and done.