Trying

...trying to make changes in my life...bought a wok and some veg....going to try and get back onto the stir fry thing rather than toast..or beans....that and the swimming...which I must say I am enjoying...well...definitely the jacuzzi!!..all about self worth and allowing it to happen..so we shall see what happens.

Just back from Perth...stayed overnight...met a friend...not for as long as we thought....but her mother is not well..so...it was nice to chill out for a few hours...but I still went with the expectation of being on my own...why?...to leave myself to the whim of chance and experience what may happen...I spent a lot of time back in my old haunts...some of which I had forgotten how crazy they were....and the hotel which was a bit "tired"...but then I walked around town taking pics and then up to the bus stop on the outskirts of town...nice bit of exercise..then walked from bus station here to the car...and tidied up....so lots of experiences which were all fine. Bit of a fright when I turned the corner to the hotel at the end of the night to find swathes of teenagers outside and inside...blimey....the girls don't wear many clothes these days do they?....ayes ahead of course...then up to my room...the party went on for a bit but it shut down after a while.

Still not feeling an increase on fitness but I do seem perkier...less recovery time....I guess my progress will be less than others...trying to increase benefits through diet as well...beer still on the go but should be less.

Early start tomorrow as I need to drop some binoculars off at a school....then to the office...sort some stuff out...then to Sunnybank Park where I should see Grace pass with flying colours at Forest School..which will be a nice feeling...not just cos she is a volunteer...cos I think we both feel....had she been a few years younger....well...who knows...

Closer and closer to dad's anniversary...trying to decide if I want to go to Fife or leave them to "move on"...it is not stressing me but I know it is there...what to do?...think I might go down on the Saturday...then visit on the way back up..need to hire a car though...so I guess the money may come into it...spent a lot over the last 6 weeks....hhmmmm. Not even sure if the headstone is up or not...sure mum would have told me.

Positive and in control. Good.

Tara