Money

Well...things have moved on...and all for the better...as we approach Christmas.

I have now paid off my Stamp Duty...well...I think I have....I sent the last cheque a while ago...got "The Man" off my back.

I have also paid my Council Tax up until March 2012. Phew.

I have also had a number of cheques sent to me in respect of the Perth property. This leaves only 2 properties left to pay. One final letter before the Small Claims Court.

Money in equals money out as I am able to pay for help in the flat..and materials as well. My good friend Wendy has a new fella...hurrah!!...and he works bloody hard....double hurrah!!...so now I can move forward better....the living room is the biggest thing as I will be here for Christmas and want to "nest" over the festive period...the living room has been a complete bugger...but it is turning now...second coat tomorrow. Kitchen stripped back....ready for priming...and then painting...2012.....the hall is stripped back and has had one primer paint.....again 2012 for the rest...my room is full of stuff...but is ready for painting...on top of the red wallpaper!!!..2012...and the spare room has now had the built in wardrobe has been demolished and opened up the room...this means that...if I come to sell...the laser measuring thingy will take the room at its widest point...which will be bigger now...and still have a double bed with wardrobe in it. However...at this point...the place still looks a mess...but all the messy work has been done...all the painting to do really...and I hope Stuart can help..if not...just me!!!

Now....am I happy being here on my own at Christmas...you know...I am..I really think I need the time to chill and reflect...about dad...about the work...ANOTHER story!!!....about not having a family or partner....and I do not mean in a negative or depressed way...just let things wash over me...and enjoy being in control of my life, my health and my destiny. I do suspect I will be a bit maudlin at some point but I do not think it will last...I have bits and pieces of furniture to put together and set up the movie sound system...clear some stuff from the room....hurrah!!! I do think I will but myself some sort of games console...up to date....and start some serious fancy shooting!!!

Tara!!

Rock & Roll

Well...sat in the flat...dressed for outdoors and feeling the cold!!! Storage heater is on and warming up....feeling a bit naff...is it man flu or is it fatigue.

Me and the boys hid at Lochinch yesterday...the weather was not as bad as had been expected BUT the wind was horrendous!!....so we made planters...finished off digging pits...cut stuff for storm kettles and painted dad's old tool box to be used as a window box..and today....2 different early years settings...lots of ground work to change into a learning area....frantic....actually...reading this....yip...definitely tired!!!

For a relaxing weekend?...well....need to get a move on and prep the flat for primer and paint!...so...sanding all weekend..although I have not put stuff away in preparation...so that will be half a day away....but you know...ime nae bothered....I need to sit down for a bit!!!! Up early tomorrow and plug away...I think I have managed to snaffle some more cd storage so need to pick them up...oh bother....it will be a late night tomorrow...but..with the walls and ceilings sorted...that will be the end of the messy bits...hopefully!

Last weekend was full on as well...down to Strathyre..to see the family and the bar....what a weekend!!!...was slightly teary on the way back....had forgotten how much I love them all and miss them so....was too long since the last visit...for a number of reasons...over a year...so..ace to be there...crap to be here...well..that feeling has faded and settled back into my home and my work. If I could...I would be there now....although my liver may not be so happy about it.

I have next week to plough through....possibly literally....and then off for a good 2 weeks...my goodness...I do need this time off...never mind the bloody teachers....I need it physically, mentally and emotionally....how will I feel on Christmas Day...single and with dad gone..?...not sure but however I feel I will let it roll over me and take it all...however...I do think there will be a lot of painting involved...and burning in the garden....with the help of Simon....busy as usual but I am determined to have the livingroom sorted for Christmas and hopefully the hall and kitchen...and then on to my blood red bedroom...grief...I cannot wait until that happens!!!!

Spare room will be last with the built in wardrobe dismantled but then need to find a stand alone wardrobe...never ends!!!!

Tara